hello guys

What's up today? well, just school =/ I failed a certain class and well i'm just a highschool senior till december. What in the world am i going to do after ward? it's really scary and i kinda didn't do so well in school (ehh..c's and b's mostly but i have failed like four classes. spanish. chemistry. physical science. & english 4). so i'm probably going to go to a community college first and see if i'm good enough for a four year college. I'm a hard worker when i work, just a major procrastinator (I daydream. I space out. I draw a lot. things like that.)

inner issues i'm dealing with right now are as followed.
my family hates me. they say they love me but there deffenitly lying. they think i don't make any sense most of the time. I try to have normal conversation with them but when they don't agree they just spat in my face. we don't agree on anything really. they don't even know i'm dating courtney. well they assume i'm dating a black guy right now and that is true. poor courtney. i love him, he's so nice to me but my family is wacked and everytime they get mad at me they bring up that i'll live a shittier life, like my mom's isn't shitty enough, i might have to break up with him i just can't stand them calling me "nigger lover" (this is really stupid to talk about)and talking about us badly when they don't even know him. THERE SO STUPID!!! can i just walk away from my nanny who lives with us though? no. She's always been there for me. she also might not agree with me in an interacial relationship but alteast she's forgiving unlike my mother who i seriously can't stand right now. my heart can't take it much longer!!! cause my rents are wierdo's. :angry: i can't help who i love, right? damn. it.to. hell. so yeah, I'm happy minus my family bitching.


i'll edit this and add more later. (see. procrastinating again. what am i going to do???)